Disconnect

Standing out in a world that constantly tries to fit you in, is the hardest thing to do. The more free spirited you are ,the more pressurizing it gets to conform to the set standards of society. The more evolved you are, the more difficult it gets to connect to people. Being yourself and living your life according to your own terms and conditions is the biggest victory one can achieve in a life time. Very very few people are able to pursue being themselves. They conform easily and do not have the strength to stand up for themselves. The rest of the people include individuals like me who fight hidden battles every day just to be themselves. The fight is difficult. Really difficult but worth it.

If you happen to be one of those people who are elevated and hold a certain degree of intellect, you will find increasingly hard to connect with the world around you. You will easily get what others think but the others won’t get what you think. What you go through will be something that only you will be able to confront and solve. You get accustomed that way. There will be moments when you want to reach out because you’re only human but you will not be able to do that. The reason being that you have always managed every crisis on your own. Not just yours but every one else’s as well.

People view individuals like me as strong and rightfully so but even the most strongest person needs to reach out sometime. The feeling where you’re understood without explaining. The feeling where you just need answers and no questions. The feeling where you’re not the one who acts as the sponge for people’s issues but someone else is. However it just doesn’t happen. Didn’t happen 20 years ago. Won’t happen 20 years henceforth. So, you learn to conceal your feelings from the world because you know expressing them will be no good. It isn’t that the world does not want to understand you. Its just that the world does not know how to understand you. Hence your guard is always up. You never put it down, both literally and metaphorically.

Every change, every new phase is handled by you independently. You learn to figure out things yourself. Your inner most feelings are only yours. You learn to put a brave smiling face in front of the world because you know that there is no market for one’s issues. None at all. You don’t cry in front of people because you know that the world is not used to seeing you that way. You won’t be even given time to sob. The world likes you happy and chirpy even in the most challenging circumstances. Becomes extremely difficult sometimes, especially if you are a wise, intellectual and liberal individual. Becomes the toughest if you’re an intellectual woman.You do have that slight expectation of ‘being reached out to’ sometimes, without asking for it. ┬áSo you wait and remain optimistic that maybe someday somebody will get you. Especially the people you connect to.

Till then you keep going strong , moving ahead, learning at being stronger each day. You realize that magic is something that only you create. That is why you stand out. Always have, always will.